14 March 2007

stress

stress :(

i dislike stress

i feel it pressing in on me from all directions

from all areas of my life

when will it ever end?

or will it?

07 March 2007

wait for it...

so God is teaching me to wait on Him....

Psalm 37
1Do not fret because of evildoers,
Be not envious toward wrongdoers.
2For they will wither quickly like the grass
And fade like the green herb.
3Trust in the LORD and do good;
Dwell in the land and cultivate faithfulness.
4Delight yourself in the LORD;
And He will give you the desires of your heart.
5Commit your way to the LORD,
Trust also in Him, and He will do it.
6He will bring forth your righteousness as the light
And your judgment as the noonday.
7Rest in the LORD and wait patiently for Him;
Do not fret because of him who prospers in his way,
Because of the man who carries out wicked schemes.
8Cease from anger and forsake wrath;
Do not fret; it leads only to evildoing.
9For evildoers will be cut off,
But those who wait for the LORD, they will inherit the land.

reread verse 7 noting this part - WAIT PATIENTLY FOR HIM.

This is what God has been teaching me lately - in ALL areas of my life

for those of you who don't know i am going to start my masters - but God has told me to wait until fall to start, i am so stoked!! i am going to get a masters of christian education, with an emphasis in childhood ministry. it feels so amazing to finally know what i'm going to do with my life. children's ministry - that is where my heart is. i've always wanted to work with children but never knew in what capacity, with my faith being who i am and what i try to live daily, it's so amazing to me to be able to integrate two of my passions!

God is also teaching me to wait in my current job situation, i am planning on staying where i am and waiting for a new position to open up in the fall, unless He drops something else in my lap. i am trusting Him. i'm not going to go looking for another job.

another area where God is teaching me patience is in my relationships with others. there has been so much change lately in my life that i became overwhelmed with it. but i know now that i am to wait patiently for Him to reveal my role in my current and new relationships. as He says in james 5 - be patient, stand firm, don't grumble, and don't swear, we must persevere. even though i may not know what is going on, i know and trust that God is in control. i just have to remember that everyone is insecure, and that people act in a way that makes sense to them (it doesn't have to always make sense to me, but i need to have a love and compassion for the person in the way that God does). i also have to believe and live out that authenticity builds relational intimacy and that hypocrisy destroys it.

a line from one of my fav songs by chris tomlin - strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord (is. 40:31)


God has been teaching me so much lately and i absolutely love it!!

thoughts

some thoughts i've ran across that i'm still processing....

everyone is desperately insecure

aunthenticity builds genuine relational intimacy and hypocrisy destroys it

catch yourself and own it when you start to pose

when we're defensive we're usually hiding or running

i'll write more later on it.....have a Spirit-filled day